Faith

As soon as I was conscious, I was an atheist. Then ‘enlightened’ as a teenager and young adult, I was agnostic. It was precisely some aspects of the institutions of faith – the Churches – that did not appeal to me. Doubtless, the exposure to members of mainstream religions that professed one thing but acted in another or cults that preyed on weak souls tarnished my impressions and left much to be desired.

“I like your Christ, I do not like your Christians. Your Christians are so unlike your Christ.”

– Mahatma Gandhi

However, I could at least keep perspective and appreciate the immense amount of good the greater community does; especially for the more vulnerable and damaged members of society – the ‘lost sheep’ as it were.

During my mid-twenties, I would say I became a man of faith. Faith in what is hard to say, though it is foolish to disregard any religion or doctrine that has persisted and endured millions of lifetimes of hardship to this day; no matter which ungodly place you think the doctrine found its roots in.

There are many, many moments where I have been utterly terrified that my conviction will not be strong enough to endure whatever hardships may come my way – if the past is any indication, they will be excruciating and potentially traumatic.

“Do not pray for an easy life. Pray for the strength to endure a difficult one.”

– Bruce Lee

But… nonetheless, it is there, a small flame of hope.

No temptation has overtaken you that is not common to man. God is faithful, and he will not let you be tempted beyond your ability, but with the temptation he will also provide the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it.

– 1 Corinthians 10:13